Wonderful

 To the man that captured my heart with one look, 

who gave me peace during a war, the one who rescued me in my darkest hour... 

To my prince who completes my happily ever after. 

There once was a day when I dreamed of finding my prince charming
and marrying him for forever, and living happily ever after.
A day when all I wanted was a man to come racing to me on his white steed and save me,
 and ride away with me into the sunset.

There was a time when I hoped and dreamed of such things wanting them to happen but never really knowing if they would.
Then into my life he came, perhaps not on a steed of white or wearing a crown,
 rather he walked up to me wearing a green BYU shirt but he was my prince none the less. 

My prince who came to my rescue and brightened my life. 

His mere presence makes everything more beautiful and complete. 

Forever was the first step, the moment that started our journey together.
A moment that can never be forgotten... 

From the first day that we promised to be together for eternity life has been fa-nominally better. I have been so blessed to have such a wonderful man in my life who is so caring and loving towards me.      

Jonathan is the  best thing to ever have happened to me.
 He brought the sunshine into my gloomy days,
the fact that he loves me despite all of my many imperfections makes life worth living.

All I want is to be good enough for him, to be his everything like he is mine.
I am so blessed to be a part of this spectacular man's life. 

Moments pass all to quickly and what seemed just like yesterday was really months or even years ago.
The beautiful thing about life is that we now have each other to spend it with.
We have the opportunity to share our burdens and delights.

Yesterday was so long ago, it was a time of childhood, make-believe, and mud-pies.

 Today we are young and just slipping into the world of adulthood,
 and now we have each other, now we share a life of love and beauty.

Tomorrow promises to bring pain and sorrow as well as happiness and delight.
 Wrinkles will come with age but we still will have each other,
love will still  blossom between us
as if just yesterday we started our new life together.

 I Love you Jonathan
 Thank you for wanting me to be your eternal companion. 

Engagement Photos =D

There was a day when all I knew was that i wanted to be happy. Happy with where I was in life, Happy whith who i was with, Happy with where I was, and Happy with who I was. Even though I dreamed of it and hoped for it and longed for that day I never actually thought I would get there.

Then one day this amazing man came into my life. When I first met him I hadn't imagined he would be the one who would help me achieve my dream of happiness...

Quickly my feelings for him grew from coworker to crush. Then from crush to love. This incredible man, somehow, managed to steal my heart away, and I am so very grateful that he did. Now, it's not a stolen piece of merchandiser but rather a portion of me that will be his forever, for all time and eternity.

This wonderful man, Jonathan, is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. He makes me want to be better so that I can be more like the person he deserves to have.

Every time I look into his eyes I get lost in the love that he gives me. Every time he hugs me I praise God for allowing me to know him. Every time he kisses me I wonder how I luck I am to be with this man.

How is it that I ended up with a man who is caring, thoughtful, and kind. How did this calm, agreeable, loving man end up in my life. He is so gentle, happy, witty, not to mention he's EXTREMELY Handsome!!!

So here I am Happy with where I am. Ooober Happy with Who I am with. Happy with what I'm doing. And best of all I'm Happy with who I am.               

Because of this wonderful man who has agreed to marry me I am a better person, I now stand up for myself and my decisions. I look at myself and am pleased with who he has helped me become.

November 25, 2011 will be the best day of my life because I will be making a promise of forever. I will be sealing myself to my best friend, to my soul mate, to the best man ever. I will be making the best decision of my life.                                                                                               

Jonathan, I love you with all my heat! I hope I can make you as happy as you have made me...

Thank you, Thank you for choosing me to be with you forever. I know that we can make it through anything, as long as we have each other!                                                                          

                                                                         

<3

Fear

Why is fear so strong? Why is it that the thin barrier of fear can keep us from peace? Fear of our neighbor limits the number of friends we could have. Fear of change and difference keeps us from foreign allies, and when we are afraid to trust, we never know love. The fear of communication ruins relationships. The fear of the unknown keeps us from discovering. The fear of people leads to a life of solitude. How do we overcome our fear? We must learn to open our eyes as we cross our tight ropes of life. We must face the monstery shadows we see so we can turn on the light and see all it really was, was a coat hanger or some other silly nothing. Our fear often keeps us from something better. 
                ~Olivia Paxton

Moments in Time

      When one looks back at life and how they came to be where they are now many feelings often arise, guilt, regret, pain, disappointment, fear, joy, happy memories, excitement, love, support, peace, etc. I can honestly say that when I look at where I have been I don't regret any decisions I have made. I can see other painful moments but I still don't regret where I have been and the moments I have experiences because they have molded me into who I am today and even on the bad days when I feel like I have lived up to nothing I still feel like I have turned out to be OK and I'm happy with who I am.

        I have moments when I look back and wonder how I ended up here, and why... I was accepted into BYU and Weber, I had full intentions of going to Weber State, what made me change my mind? Why was the Lord so intent on me coming to BYU? Now I'm here, I'm getting married and I'm very grateful that I did change my mind and I went where the Lord wanted me because the man I'm going to marry is the most incredible man. When I look at him and talk to him I wonder, are the people in our lives because they need us or because we need them? Personally I look at my own life and know that he is in my life because I need him. I need the love and support that he give me, I need the kind words he tells me, I need the loving looks he shares with me, I need someone to listen to me when I speak and he does.  I need him more than he can possibly imagine. He does all that and more, at times I feel like I don't do enough for him because he is always doing something to make me happy and I don't feel like I do that very well.

      But even though my trials were, at the time, unwanted, painful, and hard, I'm grateful for them because I feel like they have made me into a better person, a little closer to the kind of person Jon deserves to be with. 

    

       

How Perfect

How perfect! Everything is falling into place... First, the most incredible man alive started dating me, then we got engaged. I found a dress the day after he proposed. We found an apartment shortly after that. The major thing left was to sell my contract... and I found someone who wants it.. I will move out by next Friday and into our new apartment until we get married then I will be joined by Jon =) yay... There is 51 days until we get married and it feel like it's too far away... Monday I went shopping with my sister and we were getting napkins for the reception and there were so many options and she was asking me which ones i wanted and I told her I didn't care because all I want is the wedding the reception is for everyone else, I wouldn't even need one... because the main part for me is over, the reception is for everyone else. So I have decided that it can run and look however as long as I can be there with the one I love, Jon. And I guess I have one request... We have to dance together at least once ;) But other than that I don't care how it looks or what we eat and listen to or look at. I Will already have my dream come true, my fairy tale will be on it's way with our without a reception... and my prince charming will be by my side =D

News...

Well to all you who read my blog I want to inform you of the upcoming events in my life... I started the fall semester and it is going rather good. I'm taking an intro to sociology, beginning ballet, New testament, writing 150, and 1st year Danish. The other big news is that I'm engaged and am planning on getting married to the man of my dreams on November 25 in the mount timpanogos temple. I am marrying Jonathan Hardy, and he's pretty incredible. I'll let that sink in for a little before I go into much more detail ;)

Dear World

Dear World,

When you tear me down,

He picks me up.

When you tell me I’m not good enough,

He tells me I can do anything.

When you look at me and shrug,

He looks at me and smiles.

When you tell me I’m ugly

He tells me I’m beautiful.

When you tell me no one cares,

He’s always there to lend a hand.

When you turn your back on me,

He’s always by my side.

When you tell me I’m lost and alone,

He’s there to guide me and be with me.

When you say “nothing lasts for forever,”

He promises to love me always.

When you speak of nothing but hate

He shows me love.

World, you are nothing compared to him…

He is my everything

~Olivia Paxton

Wilber

Man I miss my puppy, My sister jsut got a new puppy and it makes me really miss my Wilber... One day, one day I will be with him again!

Hands

Soft and tender while trying to heal the broken skin, yet hard and firm when I broke a rule. your hands, warm and kind healed my broken hearts by a simple squeeze of the hand and a pat on the back. As time when on your hands aged with you. Now frail forms they still glisten with their fulfilled past. Hours of service and years of love worn into them. Your hands have moved mountains of guilt and aided in the crossing rivers of sorrow. They may rest now with you but their impact is forever in the lives they touched.
~Olivia Paxton

Life

So I started school at BYU and it's insane! It's so much fun though. I am meeting Lots of new people and I love living on my own it's great. Next week is going to be both fun and scary hard... Tuesday I have an assignment due, HARD part, Thursday the men in my ward is putting on a Sisters appreciation night and I'm excited to go,FUN part, and Friday I have a philosophy paper due and I still am not sure on a topic but I'll come up with one and it'll be good. I love my philosophy class only because of the people in there... I'll let you read into that what you will... my other classes are good but hard at the same time. My Family Processing class kinda sucks because I have to analyze my own family and I really don't want to. The think I don't like the most about being here is not getting to see my dog, I really miss him! I also started work a while ago and I am loving it, my bosses birthday was yesterday so I made her her favorite pie and took it to her at work Thursday because one of the girls were going to be gone. She loved it!

Graduation

I am officially done with high school! I graduated May 23, 2011 it was kinda lame, you know the typical graduation but, It's done and I'm done with school, well high school now I have college I GET to go to HA well I'm going weather I like it or not... I move into my new apartment probably Thursday. Right now I am in Enoch City visiting my sister Sarah and her family. Wednesday I had all four of my wisdom teeth taken out and I was put under to get it done and I had a really strange dream of chasing colors. At one point during the extraction I woke up I remember opening my eyes and looking at the doctor and his assistant then I remember I just had to get back to chasing my colors haha. The actual taking out of my wisdom teeth wasn't too bad it's the after affect that sucks. I have been somewhat loopy since Wednesday and I have been EXTREMELY exhausted! both physically and mentally. haha but oh well I'll get better soon... I hope =)...

Update

Well it's a relief to know I have somewhere to live. However it's not a relief when I don't know how I'm going to pay for it. I can not apply for financial aid at BYU and I'm not sure why they keep telling me they don't have all my info but I'm not sure what else they want. I really don't know what to do with my dog. My mom now has decided that she can take him because it is so hard for HER to think about having to give him up. She thinks it's hard for her. Imagine how it's been for me. But I don't know if he should stay here. Or if he should go live with the guy in Billings. At least up there he will have other dogs to interact with and he will be a part of their lives, interacting with him and everything where as here he would basically be just a lawn ornament. The only interaction he gets is when someone goes outside. I don't want that for him for forever. I just don't know I want the best for him but... It's so hard. Suggestions are wonderful... It's hard to believe graduation is in two weeks. It's coming so quickly! Right after graduation I get my wisdom teeth pulled then it's off to college... IT'S about time! I cant' wait to be able to move out on my own and be able to make my own decisions. I know it's going to be a lot different than it is now but... That's what I'm hoping for =)

Some of New York

This was when i was in New York in April It was fun but I definitely could not ever live there I think...

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